my beginnings

Its been a really long time since was here last. I spend most of my time on facebook now, its faster to catch up on everyone there. Most of my family and frinds are over there also, so I tend to hang near them, It makes me feel better to be able to connect faster. even if its only for a second and online.

I started this page about five years ago when my mom was sick,. She had pulmoary fibrosis, and this was the first time she had ever been sick in all her life. Well, sick to the point that it effected her life. I started playing one day, and saw this link that invited people to join the 360 family and start a blog page. It was a big step for me, it scared the crap out me to put myself out there, but what the hell. Who was going to read it anyway. I figured i would use it as a journel, and then I could always go back and read how I progressed, if I kept up with it. And it was free.

So I signed up. I set up a page and wrote my first blog. I wrote on my page, after I learned how to get back to it. I forgot to bookmark it for the longest time, so I always had to get there going through all the pages. It was a pain, but i finally learned. Then one day, someone commented on what i wrote, and I was so surprised. How did this person know who I was and why did they want to read what I had to say. then i was invited to be friends with people, and this was a whole new thing for me. How do i know these people are nice, and why do they want to be friends with ME?

It took me a bit of a struggle to agree to be friends at first, then I realised it was ok, and I could just delete people I didnt like any more. As time went on, and I got to know the folks on my friends list, I got very comfortable logging on and dumping on this electronic page. I never put too much personal information here, so that allowed me to unload enough to let me better. sometimes, you just need to talk. There were days i needed to talk, be the only talker, cry and get it all out. My blog page allowed me to do all that. and to top it all off, I had a small group of friends on my list that would respond to me and send me the comfort I needed in return.

Since that first blog, my mom passed away, we all went through the 360 issues, moved to multiply and some of us joined facebook. I have met friends I will cherish for my entire lifetime. I have been fortunate enough to meet my two favorite friends, and hopefully one day I will get to travel to their part of the world. I have learned so much from everyone here. And I even got to show some of my talents to people. I taught a friend how to make a quilt, just going back and forth. It was a long process, but it was fun. That was something I truely enjoyed. Thanks Carol. I even wrote a few stories and puthtem up here. I started with childrens stories, then somehow it progressed to the more grownup  versions. Everything is a learning process.

I dont know where this particular blog is going, but i needed to write it. Its been in my head for a while, and it wouldnt go away until I put it in words. That is how the stories go also. they wont leave me alone until I write them. Maybe now I can sleep all night, and maybe now I will start writing here again. I dont know if I am in need of therepy again, but it is free and it makes me feel good to put things into words.

So, until next time, see ya later.