Entry for February 26, 2006

Its Sunday night and I have to get ready for work again. This will be my first full week back. They cant force me to do 12 hour days this week, but now I will have to work Fridays until they hire more people for Friday night.  I work 3rd shift, 12 midnight to 8 am. We do a lot of 12's because the other shifts arnt staffed up to where they should be.  Yesterday, I inquired about online classes for paralegal. That is definantly a day job. Im sure the pay is similar to what I make now, and if not, well, its still a day job that isnt physically taxing on myself.

It is cold and rainy here today, and it is supposed to stay this way all week. I know its not as cold as you folks back east get, but we get cold in Cali also. I will be home asleep all day while it is cold and rainy, so it isnt as sad to look at. Back east when it snows so bad, it at least gets pretty outside, untill someone walks there dogs through it and leaves little packages all over on the white snow.

I have to go take my little nap now, so I will be ready to jump up and go to work. I have my DVR set to record Dancing with the stars Finale and desperate housewives. I love my dvr. I can sleep without thinking I am going to miss something I wont be able to see again.

I just really hope this paralegal thing turns out to be something I really want to do.  I think I really hate my job and I cant go on like this forever. So here I am, stepping up to the plate to change my destiny. I do beleive you are in charge of your own destiny.

NO Hangover Saturday, YIPPEEEEE

As  it turns out, I never tasted that X-rated martini I wanted on my last free Friday. I guess in the future, there will be other days I can try and mix one up. The good thing about that is that I woke up feeling just fine. No hangover, no fuzzy memory, no nausious tummy. Not that I would have over imbibed, but sometimes, all it takes is a few, and I am done. Yes folks, as far as drinks are concerned, I am a cheap date.  I really dont drink much. I pretty much stick to coffee and water. But when I do decide to have a drink, it is white wine, very good white wine, no 2 buck chuck for me.  Sometimes I like to have a mixed drink, just for fun, and a little bit of a change.

Can someone please tell me if there is some way to add stuff to this blog page thingy. I mean stuff like SPELL CHECK and underlining, you know the stuff that is on every other writing page. I get pretty tired of doing my own spell check. You get a little lazy in those areas after a few years of having the luxury of spell check. I know it isnt always right, but it catches the obvious stuff.  I would also like to know how some folks create those really creative pages. Ther is one with a freakin clock on it, all decorated with cow stuff. It is really cute!! Ok so much for my ranting for today, I need to get ready to start today and possibly be productive. See ya all on the next page.

 

Entry for February 24, 2006

I just got home from work and I hurt all over. It has been six months since I worked all week, surgery on my foot, remember. I almost was going to be forced to work tonight, but because I just got back, I get a one week repreive. Then, I will have to start working every Friday also. My  normal work week is Sunday through Thursday,  so working Friday just sucks.  I really hate OT. Some people like it, they say they have bills to pay, bla bla bla. I dont, and I dont want to work it but I also dont have a choice. So I will take a nap today, and make the most of my last Friday night out.

My friend Rosa took me out to breakfast for my birthday today, it was Wednesday.  She is a very thoughtful person. She bought me a bottle of X rated Pink Vodka. It is in a really cute pink container of sorts. Sorta like a basket, I dont know how to describe it. There is a recipe  on the bottle for an x -rated martini. Yeah, that sounds like it might be a part of my Friday night. I just tried to get a pic of the vodka from my kodak file, lets see if I can do it one more time and make it appear on this page. That Kodak gallery is so hard to work with.  Oh well its in My Gallery somewhere and i dont know how to get it out.

I am exhausted, so I am going to sign off for now. If you happen to stop in and read this, drop me line and let me know who you are and what you have been up to. I love to read other peoples blogs, and sometimes I leave a little message. You all have a good weekend, and stay safe.

I CAME BACK AND TRIED IT AGAIN AND  I  DID IT!!!! I  GOT ANOTHER PICFROM MY KODAK FILE ON MY PAGE!!!!!

Entry for February 22, 2006

Wow, Its really been a long time since I wrote anything. As you can see from my front page, I got brave and invited another friend. That was a simple but big step for me in this blog world. You have to understand, friends are something I pick carefully. I have to feel safe with them, or they are just aquantences. I know this is just a blog page and I probably wont ever meet anyone I ask to be my friend, but that doesnt matter, I have my standards, and that is that.

Today is my birthday. I turned 48. My best friend Lori gave me a beautiful black lace top with a tank under it. It is so beautiful. I would have never bought myself something like this.  Now I have to go get myself pants to go with it. The last itme I bought something like this was with my mom, and I got a red strapless formfitting silk dress. IT WAS HOT, AND SO WAS I!! I have to learn to take more chnaces with myself and what I wear. I see other people in really pretty stuff, and for some reason, think I couldnt pull it off. If they can, so can I! Who is going to know or even care, just me.

I am back to work qnd hating it. My feet hurt so bad whenI get off I just want to cry. Steel toed boots are not meant to be comfortable. I have to go in at 11:00 tonight. We have a stupid meeting. I hate meetings. Some day i am going to go back to school and learn a trade where I work monday through friday, 8 to 5 and no weekends. I will have a sitdown job and good benefits. And my feet wont be crying at the end of the day. I sand all night long and pack chips. Not very gratifying, but it pays the bills.

That is all for tonight. I have to get ready for work. Make my lunch, you know the drill.

Entry for February 16, 2006

Today is my last night at home again. Tomarrow night I go back to work, one more time. My doctor took me off for two weeks when my mom passed away. I hope i am ready to go back. If I start crying on the line, I hope no one sees me. I miss my mom so much. It has been two weeks now, and I keep thinking I should call her. She would get upset if I didnt call her at least once a week. She would call me and make sure I was ok. A lot of times, I didnt even realise it had been more thant a week since I called her. When I would go and visit, she always said it was so nice I came to see her. My mom loved to see her children. If I stayed too long, she would tell me to spend the night, cause she didnt want me to have to drive home in the dark. I am 47 years old, but moms never really let their kids grow up all the way, at least mine didnt. I cant do it with mine either. They will always be my babies, no matter how old they get.  That is the way mom did us. No matter if we were fighting, and she knew one of us was wrong, she never took sides in front of us. I think seperatley, she may have said something, I dont know.

Mom and my sister lived together in a house they bought. My sister decided she wanted to move, the house was too big for her alone. She found another place and now the house is going on the market next week.  That seems to make it finale. There wont be a "moms house" any more.  I have pictures of my family all over my house. I dont want some picture from someone I dont know. I can walk all over my house and see my family. My mom is in a lot of these pictures. I remember people saying why do you take so many pictures??? Well folks, this is why. So I can see my family any time I want. I value my family more than anything.  The pic above is my brother and one of my sisters and my mom on her 86th birthday. Most of her kids and grandkids were able to be there. I was able to take pictures and my mom saw them and it made her happy to be with her kids. I wish everyone could have known my mom. She was a blessing to everyone that met her. I guess I could go into that right now, but that is another novel. I just know Iwill get to see her again one day.  I love you mom.