Our Bodies

Are so very amazing. It starts with our hearts and brains, they really run the whole show and decide what is going to work and what is not. Our brains tell the parts to walk, stand, pick something up, what order to put  words to create a sentence, all the things we do every day from the time we wake up, to the time we go to bed to recharge our system. Its sort of like turning our computers off and on and  rebooting them.

Our hearts are what keeps the blood flowing through the body and to our veins. its keeps the brain working so it can do the things it needs so we can do all the wonderful things that each of us do every day. If something happens to either one of these two parts of our bodies, we crash, much like our computers. I know this is a very rough and not completely accurate way to describe these two important parts of us, but it works for me right now.

I know it seems very strange for me to say things like this, because I dont know much of anything past putting a band aid on something as far as the medical field goes, but this is sort of the way our brains and hearts were described to me recently, by real doctors to help me understand something.

I dont normally talk about the parts of my life that arent fun or intersting, (that would leave me with not much to say at all........ever), but I experienced something the other night at work that scared the shit out of me and I sort of need to get it out of my system. Hopefully, maybe if I put it out there, I will be able to stop dwelling on it and get over it. So here goes, lets hope this works for me like my own personal therepy used to.

I dont normally get sick, or have anything strange happen to me, so this scared the crap out of me. The other night at work, I had what I can relate this to as sort of a head rush that wouldnt go away. I really dont know what brought it on, because I dont remember everything that happened. I do remember trying to call to the guy I was working with, but I couldnt yell loud enough. I really dont even know if there was even sound coming out of my mouth, cus it all sounded so far away. I was holding on to a pallet board, but at the time, I think I thought it was a pallet jack, but I knew if I let go, I would fall.

I finally got my co workers attention and asked him to call our supervisor, he called the emergency team instead. he must have seen something I couldnt tell him. Then, I needed to sit down and I dont know what happened to the pallet board I had in my hand, but I was sitting on the stack of them and all of a sudden two of our mechanics(our emergency team) were right there and trying to get me to lay down on the floor. There were at least 10 of our EOT people all around me and i was shaking and trying to figure out what was happening. The sound was still far away and when I looked around, all these people were looking at me and i was just sitting there on the floor.

Then, there was real firemen and paramedics there, talking to me and asking me what medicines I take and how old I was and I just kept looking at them. I know I answered them, I also talked to our emergency team and answered the same questions, but it seemed like when I saw them, it was sort of like looking into one of those mirrors that make things look out of proportion. Anyway, the female paramedic started putting those snap stickers on my stomach and chest so they could hook me up to a heart monitor. She was talking to me and making me feel better, telling me to breath in and out slowly, focus on my foot I think(just cus it was something I could see without looking away). My heart was racing, and I still was shaking, but not as bad as earlier.

I finally calmed down enough that they could let me move. I heard them(Idont know who it was, just the people talking around me) saying they could bring a cage up on a forklift and they could take me downstairs that way. OH HELL NO! I will walk down the stairs I am not getting into a cage! (I have thought in the past, what if something happened to me up here, how would they get me down? I had visions of being strapped to a pallet board and lowered to the ground). I was able to finally get up and walk, holding on to the lady paramedic and a mechanic down the stairs.

For some reason, I sorta figured i would just go back to doing my job and I would be fine. I guess once they call the paramedics, you dont get to do that. Anyway, John came and got me and we went to two different doctors that day. I had to go to a company doctor and he took me out till Tuesday. then I went to my new doc, that I hadnt met yet. It was a very long day for me and for John. John would let me drive that day or even yesterday. I have to today though, I have stuff i need to get done.

Ok, that is my big news for the week. When I go back to work, I am going to ask my co worker if he can fill me in on anything.