Its raining again today. I dont mind. I will sleep good, once I shut this down, take my shower and crawl into bed. I look forward to crawling into bed. I get asked frequently how I can sleep in the daytime and why do i work third shift. Does it effect my homelife and when do i see my husband. Well, I have gotten used to third shift, I work hard all night, and when I get home, just like most of you that work in the daytime, I am tired. I have no problem falling asleep. All I have to do is close my eyes, and turn on the tv and i am out. I turn on the tv so I dont hear the outside noises. Also, if I hear that in the background, I am able to stop my brain from thinking about other stuff while I am trying to get to sleep. Then, John comes home for lunch and turns the tv off. I wake up when I wake up. It feels good. No alarm to scare me out of sleep. Just wake up when im ready. OK, so much for that thought.
I forgot what I initially wanted to write about. Could that be a sleepy symptom?
I will have to get back to this later on, when im not tired. I usd to come home and open my lappy and write here, or when I was watching tv in the evening. I will have to try and start that again. It felt good when i did it, but for some reason, something has changed with me latley. I dont know what it is, or why I changed, but something changed. I dont have the same desires to do things that are important to me I had jsut last year. The things are still important, I am just not supporting them the same way. I am talking about the relay for life. I usually will send out requests as early as I can and try to raise enough money to cure cancer. This year, I am writing my own check. What happened? Maybe I just need a year off.
There is something else going on, but I dont know if I can write it properly here. I cant say that one issue is the reason, it may have something to do with my changed attitude. it definatly isnt the whole reason. I am trying to correct that one issue, and see if it will cooect my attitude.
OK, that was my therapy for today. Im gonna go sleep with the rain now. see ya later.
There just comes a time.. when it's time to focus a bit on oneself. Volunteer burnout.. it just happens. You give so much of yourself.. that there isn't time for the things you like to do. It's OK!
ReplyDeleteI think that you've grown in many ways over the past couple of years - and there have certainly been changes in your life from the volunteer work that you've embraced to your son moving across the country.
ReplyDeleteSometimes we try on different attitudes just the way we might try on clothes....some are right at the time, but might not appeal to us the next season...some suit us so well they become a permanent part of ourselves.
And I've no doubt you'll find your "aha" moment with whatever is going on that you're working out at the moment. Sometimes I can blog stuff that I don't understand and my friends will help me sort it out.....but sometimes I need to find my own way - and then blog about it later.
Sleep tight.
ReplyDeleteMaybe just "spring fever". You'll be all right.
ReplyDeleteIm pretty sure I know what is bothering me, I just dont know how to fix it. I know in time it will just present itself, and I can unload. When that happens, I will tell put that here as part of my self therapy sessions.
ReplyDeleteDown time and selfish time is good for you...along with Vegas baby...yea!
ReplyDeleteI cant sleep with the TV on I have to read to get my mind to shut down!
reading and tv work both for me. I hope you work out what's bothering you : )
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