I remembered some more

I did remember a few things I wanted to talk about. I don't usually talk about this either, and i get scolded for it. But this time, I'm talking. Next month is my 50th birthday. I have been thinking about this, and then thinking some more. I am kind of looking forward to 50. 50. 50. 50. Each one of those is a statement. I used to think of fifty as a huge number. Half a century. I am coming to terms with it now. I keep saying it out loud. I keep telling people. I am going to be fifty years old. I don't think I look like I am fifty, whatever that looks like. I just wanted to say I'm turning fifty next month.

Also, another thing i realised when Alex and Claire was out here at Christmas. Alex was my baby for the longest time. I felt like he still needed me. Then, when they came out here, I got slapped in the face with the fact that he is growing up. He has Claire, which he should have, to help him with his problems and to go to. He no longer needs me like he did. I suppose i should be happy he is growing up. I miss him needing me, but now I will have a more mature son who I will now look at as a responsible adult. I have been happy to be a childless parent again, but I guess I still wanted my baby. We are both growing up, and that is a good thing.

Now, for one last thing. I went to the movies today and saw Mad Money. I went all by myself, paid too much for a soda and threw most of it away. I did enjoy the movie though. I kept wanting to comment about different things, but there was no one to say it to, so I just kept the thought to myself. It wasn't a bad experience, so I may just go do it again next friday. I want to see 27 dresses and the bucket list. Mad Money was pretty good by the way.

Now this is really it. We have plans for this weekend. There is a sportsman's exposition up in Sacramento this weekend, and John really wants to go. He also might want to go to the coast again. It is a three day weekend, and we intend ot make the most of it. I hope you do too.